Bye Bye, 2025 / 又到年尾
There are years that my Google Map review shown my furthest adventure was a supermarket 5 miles east to my house or a park 10 miles west, as a passenger. But not this year. I went to London 3 times, visited Edinburgh, Durham, drove to Barnsley and flew Hong Kong. I haven’t flown for 8…
太多經歷，太少意義。
“We had the experience but missed the meaning. And approach to the meaning restores the experience in a different form.” ― T.S. Eliot (Scroll to bottom for English version) T.S Elliot 話，太多經歷，太少意義。 我想寫中文，唔理有無人睇，唔理邊個睇 ，唔理AI 寫得好過我。我想寫中文。 有好多嘢我都有自知之明 ——自知唔明。 個個都寫嘢，寫咗又無人睇。 唔使急，唔係趕住做KOL 急住要分析時事局勢，指點江山，寫完又無人睇，都係寫啲茶餘飯後嘅傷春悲秋，諗下先，睇定啲先。 我日日嘗試做得好啲，我都唔知好啲—係搵多兩個錢，定陪啲細路多啲，定間屋吸塵拖地換床單，周末meal plan 計劃好啲，定睇多啲書，定學多幾隻字，定寫嘢，定畫嘢，定見多啲人，定諗下平時返工有咩進步嘅空間，定學多啲電腦酬備轉工，定填下form搵份有大啲機會可持續發展嘅工？ 我完全唔知點先叫做好啲。我以為工作安穩，但常有控制不了嘅人事問題令我個個月都有衝動劈炮唔撈。跟住我諗，係我自己見識少，係我少少嘢都瓜瓜叫，挨多兩星期又出糧， it can’t be that bad。 究竟點先可以做得啱？我覺得我仲係好似五歲時，幾努力都係俾人打。 人大咗講嘢無咁大聲，自我HR 審查，怕得罪人。但我成世人都唔知點解，不明所意，成日得罪人。我以為我終於開竅嘅時候，下星期又打回原形。人大咗，接受自己渺小如塵，平庸無稽，但我幾唔想俾人見到，要生存，我都要融入社會㗎。我唔想做能人所不能，但我唔放棄做自己，唔諗辦法超越現時嘅我，我就死得。 但同時我仲係default parent，星期一至日都係我最早起身，整早餐放狗幫啲細路換衫預時間出門口準時返學返工，返工前設定洗衣乾衣 D 細路有校服著，放工後煮飯洗碗放狗晾衫摺衫，返工學習HR…
To live, is to ____ up.
and I have given up pretending otherwise. a year since i printed my new business cards on moo, i had done no blogging, sketched a few lines and hardly touched any python. what a let-down. i still spend far too much time on the phone and drink too much. no one is going to read…
Picking a lane, or three
I have printed a pile of business cards from moo.com. I don’t know what to call myself. I am not defined by my roles I currently tenure. I have been working in a charity job on Friday, at children theatre on Saturday and at a children home on Sunday, and I also volunteer for the…
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Daphne Bennett 